To go or to stay?

No no no, I'm not deciding whether to ditch my other half (if there's one), haha, but yeah, in another sense... my job is my other half.... since I camp almost half my life in my cube surrounded with half dismantled printers and tons of PCAs. There was a time when I was truly enthusiastic about all these and wish that I was a super guru obsessed with electronics and that I can see - see how the electrons flow and breathe EMI. But since I was a super goondu when I first started out, with hardly anybody to turn to, and the new guys around me were talking about PCB, 6 layer boards, vias, USB and so on... I felt small and stupid, cos' all of were oddly unfamiliar to me. Yes, I didn't even know what a USB cable was. I was that technologically backward. Amazing why they hired me. KEKEKE.

Anyway, it was at that period whereby I made an oath. When one day, ONE DAY (I repeat), when I finally become slightly more knowledgeable than any newbies and they need my help... I will TEACH them, no matter how idiotic they are. Cos' I know how it feels like to be lost and lonely and stupid. In case I have rotten tomatoes thrown at me... No, I haven't met anybody who is an imbecile (Why I use a BIG word "imbecile" is because super boy genius called somebody an imbecile today and that word keeps ringing in my brain) who needs my help. But there are times when I was able to provide some assistance, and it sometimes feels great, cos' I have become kinda good at something to give help :). So well, those days of datasheet reading and board designing has honed me quite a bit, and I'm glad. But the thing is, do I still want to do this? Or go somewhere else and try something else? I have new roles coming up, but frankly... I'm not all that keen. I feel like a bird who's safe in a nice cage with food and shelter, but I'm aching to spread my wings and take in newer sights.

Fly away, meadowlark
Fly away in the silver morning
If I stay, I'll grow to curse the dark
So it's off where the days won't bind me
I know I leave wounds behind me
But I won't let tomorrow find me
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