Singing in the Rain

I love to sing, but I have just ended my lessons with my voice teacher of 2 years cos' -

(1) It's ex.
(2) I'm simply too tired especially after I joined choir that my health was taking a nosedive.

But now, after 2 weeks of no lesson, I'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Things like "Will I forget everything I have learnt", "Gee, I have nothing to do at night" and "I need my security blanket lessons to remind me things I should and should not do". Those weekly hourly lessons often badly bruise my ego, since my teacher is those crazy loud super obnoxious person who is overconfident with her craft. She'll scream loud things in her big operatic voice like "You call that singing?! I don't even know what you are doing!" or "Can you remember what I always tell you?!!!"... yup... and you get the flow.... I don't particularly like her voice... well... cos'... I don't really care much for opera, but man, can she teach. She knows exactly what you need correcting and what you are doing wrong, so every week was like a relearning session and I go away feeling that I have corrected more mistakes in my singing. Now... I feel lost and there's nobody I can turn to to talk about singing... Geez... I feel insecure....

I think I'll go home and write down all that she has told me.... yup... that's it.... that's what I should do.... lost... lost... lost... lost....