Learning the TaoGays...

Yes, me and Bao signed up for the music theory exam grade 3 at our advanced age. But I'm glad. I'm finally studying something cos' I want to do it and not cos' I have to. Plus I'm going for me singing exam next year again. So exciting. :):):).

I wished I had taken up all these things earlier when I was a kid, so that I can have another skill, and that I can happily play a piece of music now on the piano without struggling like crazy. Keke. Ah well, it's never too late to start I guess.

So after the exam next saturday which I will hopefully not fail. I was go for a little shopping.. and by evening... the Quah will be back in sunny S'pore. Away from the cold and sausages of dreary Berlin. Then we will tuck into Chili crabs for dinner. LG - Life's Good.

PS: It will be better if they can increase my pay by 20%... Okok, I dun push my luck. Just let my weekly thursday dollar cost averaging investment have some returns. HUAT BIG BIG AH!

:D

From the "In" Crowd to the "Out"

I never thought I would feel that way again. Like the time in school. Feeling like an idiotic lost lamb, hoping someone will talk to me, ask me to join them for lunch or just see me, instead of right through me. After years of working life and being an adult, I'm still hounded by the insecurities of the past. Bloody hell. This wasn't what I expected myself to be at the major age of 28. I was supposed to be confident, suave, chic, cool, successful, gorgeous and the list goes on. Instead, I am just the scaredycat nerd I was 10 years before. Guess people don't change, do they? Hmmm....

Ah Geez, anyway... this past week has been eventful.

(1) I met up with my Tapper pals to celebrate Yewpapa's birthday.

(2) Went to a torturous teambuilding whereby I did the canopy walk, which involves me working on just 2 ropes hanging dangling 8 storeys above ground. I think my body went into survival mode, all I could think then was to not die and get through it. After I safely reached the endpoint, my whole body felt weak and I went rubbery soft. I was in a daze the whole night after that and slept through the entire saturnday after the event. I WOULD NEVER DO STUPID STUNTS AGAIN.

(3) Went to meet CJ and NUS classmates for dinner at PS. The weird thing about going for gatherings is that, I always feel an acute sense of inadequacy and envy at my exclassmates. Everybody seems to have their thing going for them. Fantastic job, great career, wonderful perfect life. Whereas I made so many bad moves in my career that probably seriously damaged it for a few years at least. x_x. Yes yes Bengy Quah, I know. Don't compare with other ppl... I'm just lamenting a little. Keke.

Ah well... it's 1am in the morning. I'm going to bed. Tired. Y can't things be perfect. :(