Doubts

Sometimes I wish my mind is more lucid. That I know 100% what I am doing is right and I will just go ahead and do what I think I should. But sadly, this female brain of mind has thousands of thoughts splashing about and I can never pin down what I should do. This is how the wimpy and confused lump in my head works:-

"Geez, I am so unhappy about this extra work which I think should not be my work! This guy should not have assigned this task to me."

"Should I ask my boss about this?"

"Oh dear, I told boss. Is it the right thing to do? Did I make enemies with ths guy? Maybe he has his concerns too. Perhaps I should just keep my mouth shut and do all the work. Sighs."

"Why is my boss not doing anything?"

"Ah well, I will just do the work."

"I am so upset about this. I am staying late to complete my job and that idiot guy just went home on the dot. I am FUMING."

"Ah well, I should calm down. This is not good for my health."

"I am so absolutely ANGRY."

"Ok, relax."

"Why is life so UNFAIR?!"

If you notice my train of thought, it keeps going round and round in circles, like a merry carousel. Gosh... I think if I use this brain activity to do some other fulfulling tasks, I probably would have become in genius in no time... Ahhhh.... How to tame this brain of mind? Mind Control Practise..... Hummmmmmmm

What Drives You?

My brother recommended me reading a book which led me to think about what intrinsically motivates me? It gets me to remove the monetary factors and kinda ponder what I will want to be remembered as when I kick the bucket. So this is my sentence "To be a great mum and wife, and to be a fantastic music teacher."

Thinking of what and how I can teach and inspire my son excites me. Learning to sing and play music makes me very happy and I can't wait to learn more. :D

I guess I am still pretty far off from where I hope to be, but I am glad I have something in my life to work towards. Jia you gogo!