New Year New Hopes (I hope) in 2010 :)

Alot happened this year... and now everything is coming to an end again. As Ms Lai, Bao and me sat there devouring the TCC's "Dark Devotion" and secretly glad that Zhi and Chunyu weren't in town so that we could have more of the delicious chocolatey goodness, we reminisced about our Cedar girls' schooldays and how everything seemed like yesterday.

Bao wished that she can go back to our secondary school days. Ms Lai and me wished to go back to Uni life so that we at least would make a different choice in our course of study. Gee... there are so many things that I would have done differently if I can turn back time. If I have the chance, I would love to have the opportunity to go overseas to have my education! To finally do something that I really like :).

We also concluded that something is damn wrong with our education system... like in primary school, idiotic teachers would scare us out of our wits if we didn't bring our textbooks... and there was this strange rule that we couldn't drink water in class, and this rather pathetic one that involves us putting our fingers on our lips to keep us quiet. What the heck was all that?! We could sue them for child abuse. I think it's all these abuse that makes me a maladjusted chicken little in my adult life... mmm... sighsighs. I really wonder in 10-20 years... would like look back like now and have some new insights into my life in my 20s... like how I realise capitalism is leeching us of our freedom and life... or something like that...

Anyway, looking back... 2009 haven't been all that bad, except when it comes to my so-called career. I married this bah long long little beng. Yes... it's really true love. Cos we are both damn unattractive. Hiak hiak hiak. I got my grade3 voice and grade 5 theory music exam certs and moving on to my grade5 voice in 2010. Hope to get to grade8 in 2012. I performed solo (finally) in a public spot. I made it to Brisbane and Bangkok... B-grade places. Ok bad joke. Oh yes, I moved into my beautiful new flat... So well, even though 2009 ended on a bad note. I will gambate in 2010. As the BLL Beng says... we must be like a ball.... and bounce back higher the harder we are hit. So I must jia you and not be splat on the ground like a tomato. Nodnod.

So... in conclusion... (pardon me... been writing too many essays for public sector jobs...), what's past past and we must look to the future. Time passes by too fast. Let's do our best and not have any regrets when we look back in our 40s. SO HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 2010 will be FANTASTIC!

Sad Christmas

Been trying to perk myself up but I can't.... it's a sad sad christmas...

Crossroads

My Christmas wish would be that Spring will come. Hahahaha... *praypray*.

Life Stinks

I took this picture in Homefix which is rather apt for me at the moment. Life STINKs. Ah gee.... I just watched Avatar and I think it's great. Makes me escape reality for a while and dream a little. Haven't been strolling down life and dream little dreams like I used to when I was younger. Things do seem so much simpler back then doesn't it? I remember I used to skip happily home after school across this huge green field in Serangoon. It feels really great to do that especially after it rains and the air is cool. There will be little birds bathing happily in the puddles that form and dragonflies flitting all over the field. And I felt happy.

But now that field is gone and they have built a huge big concrete mall over it, filled with the same boring shops and soon once everything is up, the place will be filled with the same mindless zombiefied lonely humans spending another mindless weekend trekking the malls with nothing better to do. And nope... there will be no more little birds and dragonflies and geeky little me prancing happily across that field no more.

Sometimes I wonder why we are doing what we are doing now for... Mass produced by our education system to fit into roles that are needed. Used by money grubbing corporations to milk us into enslaving ourselves to produce even more money for them. And the problem is we are so poisoned by what we are taught since young that we can't retaliate. Am I making sense? I am not sure. But I think the world is not a pretty place.

I'm tired.

Words of Wisdom from a Little Brother

Iuhiz says:
i no know about working life.. but i just know that its ok to fail and its even better to fail often becos only then can u become successful faster

1am

1am and still awake... Haven't been so sad in a long time.

A Little Fall of Rain

Can hardly hurt me now....

Gotto stop crying and be strong! Jia you gogo. But I'm so tired.

God give me strength.

I DID IT! :D

Hiak hiak hiak. Had my first solo performance in a public area yesterday. Feel rather proud of myself. Even though a few days before, I contemplated feigning sickness in order to escape this. It's a showcase of the schools students. I sang my exam piece which is an art song... damn boring. I think the audience fell asleep... but I'm still glad I did it :D. Yippee!

* On a sidenote... I think my arms are fat. Shit. *