I am tired. Just plain bone deep weary. I can't hide in my nothing box for longer than 5mins before someone pulls me back into reality with more tasks to complete... NO! Don't ask me about how my confounding job is! No! Don't talk to me about wedding stuff and tons of things that is left dangling in the air! No! Let's not discuss about how my home renovations will be! NONONONONO! I don't want to talk about all those things. I just want peace and emptiness in my brain. I want nothing in my brain when I stare mindlessly at the TV. I want to do and think about nothing. I want to rest. I'm tired!!! Don't ask me how you can help too cos' I don't want to use my brain to think about how you can help. I'm TIRED!!! If you don't understand tired. GOOGLE IT! Don't ask me why I'm tired too cos' I dunno how to explain to you. I'm tired cos' I'm tired!!! :'(Maybe I'm weak. I ain't someone who can take too much stress. I was thinking that even when the whole world has evolved and attained Xmen-like abilities, I'll probably still be a plain little weak human that has become redundant. I change to suit the environment too slowly. Sighsighsighsssssss..... :'(
The only thing that keeps me sane now is playing JMraz songs over and over in the miserable sardine-can mrt train I'm in every morning. Squished against the door, with my toes trodded on, I distract myself listening to the music and quirky lyrics that gives some meaning to this crazy hectic life....
"Are the details in the fabric.
Are the things that make you panic.
Are your thoughts results of static cling.
Are the details in the fabric.
Are the things that make you panic.
Is it mother nature's sewing machine?
Are there things that make you blow hell no reason go on and scream.
If you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing.
Everything will be fine.
Everything in no time at all.
Everything..."
Gimme a break please :'(.
