I'm stuck in my room with a cold. Thanks to the SBG who "helpfully" coughed and sneezed in my cube. He should be put in quarantine... Geez...
As on all days that I feel sick. I am down and depressed. So those who don't want to hear me mope can quickly click the BACK button. Haha. Yes, I'm back to the world of the human pigs. I must say that I am actually happier back here. With all my friends and colleagues struggling to solve issues, gossiping, OTing with pizzas and fast food, escaping to vivo for lunch to escape the hassles of deadlines and backsideburnt bosses. Even when we are demoralised and down, you know you can safely complain to someone who won't turn around and stick two knives down your back.
But sometimes I wonder if I can do this all my life. I came into this job with a bright ambition burning, hoping I can make it good, become an expert in my field and a Senior in front of my title and then a Principal. Sadly, after nearly 4.5 years of toiling and sweating, I am still at ground 0. Sobs. Not sure if it's due to my downtrodden self esteem, people around me all seem to be taking the express elevator up to the top floor while I'm hardly up any rungs of the ladder than when I first started off working.
And thus, I came to the conclusion that I MUST leave this line. If doing a job I have not alot of talent and interest in, is not bringing me anywhere. Perhaps it's I should follow my dreams and take the plunge. Which leaves only one door open to me. I wished I can knocked on that door 2 years ago instead of now, when the big 3-0 is looming near and I feel slightly old. But better late than never I guess. :D.
So little mynah, Auntie Hong is going to join your flight and not going to waste time climbing ladders and taking elevators or whatnot crap. Fly!!! Be Free!!!
Think i'm nuts. Hope that door opens after I knock though. I have many latches and bolts to unlock. Wish me luck!!! JIA YOU! GOGO! Mmm... need to go temple and pray and gather all the good karma on my side.
